I'm selected for the interview....
I know I'm supposed to be happy as it is a step up to what I want.
But I just can't help pondering over a comment...
"You be teacher?? You sure anot! Later all your students emo and commit suicide ah!"
I know that he's joking la...
But his comment really made me think.

Wanting and being able to do it are 2 different things...
It's not saying I'm giving up without trying....
But what if I really am not teacher material??

I could really cause the students to suffer....
And I really don't want that.

Being a teacher (to me) is NOT just teaching them and stuffing them with knowledge and facts,
It's also as a role model and mentor,
Knowing them and guiding them individually to realize their talents and potential,
Teaching them right from wrong as they're still young,
As well as bringing and nurturing them up as people with good morals and ethics,
And also becoming people who are useful and contributing back to the society in the future.
It's like being a second parent to them,
To what I see la....

It's not going to be an easy job,
Especially in a society where good results and qualifications are seen as topmost importance.
You have to be in great responsibility,
And it's people who you're dealing with...
They're not dead like computers I'm facing everyday for now,
They have their own mindsets,
Thinking and personalities,
Even as children....

It's ok.
I've decided.
I'll go for the interview and do my very best.

If they choose me,
I'll do my very best to learn AND be one that fulfills what a person in the job needs.
That's final.
It's the reason why I wanted to be one in the first place.