Hahahaha...
Someone actually told me to blog what happened??
Whoa so kay-poh...

Hmm....
Since he don't mind den I put lo...

Erm....
Whoa...
Feel super guilty sia.

Ok...
Here goes...

Last week,
Other than band almost everyday and the Kaisheng thingy,
I got in AND out of a relationship.

Erm,
With Ah Loy (Wei Qiang).
Erm...
Okok..

I knew Ah Loy since secondary school.
I got to know him from my ex...
He was one of Hao's buddies...
Together with Jun HONG,
Ah Xiang and Wayne(or Junjie) .

We used to play basketball together in Ubi when I was with my ex.
After the breakup,
We met up occasionally...
Recently got to be more in touch with them due to MSN.
Yeah.

Anway,
He called me on Monday,
Asking me if I wanna er,
Be his GF.

I thought he was joking as usual,
Who knew it was serious?
He sounded very serious,
Then I shocked lor....
Slient for like 5 mins...

Apprently,
It was Jun HONG who got him to do that.
Wtf?

Anyway,
I was like 'Huh?'
He was like 'ya'.

I was stunned can?
Since when he liked me?
Crazy ah?
Pak-chiao ah?
I treated him like a brother to me...
No more feelings.

Another point,
I'll be busy with my tests and band and attachment 3 weeks later....
Band on Mon,
Tues,
Wed,
Thurs,
Whole Sat.

I have to spend Sunday with my family.
I promised that to my sis.

Which leaves only Friday?
Kaoz?

Then when attachment starts,
I'll be in school on Mon to Fri from 8.30A.M. to 5.30P.M.
No releasing earlier....
Then adding band in,
Its almost impossible to meet up.

(To the girls,
Now you understand why I say NO?
And IF DIE DIE must have,
The guy MUST be from band?)

And lastly,
How would Hao think?
(About my ex,
It's quite a complicated story....
Whoa...
See if I want to put it in later lo...)

Anyway.
I explained this to him...
He went like,
"We can try... 2 weeks can? If 2 weeks really cannot we break...."

Whoa...
I felt super awkward can?
I tried to talk him out,
But he insisted...

I was reluctant,
But agreed.
Cos I was thinking how I was going to react the next time I meet him if I said 'no'...
Would he hate me?
Ignore me?

Then I said ok.
Yeah.

Jun HONG called me while after I agreed.
(Yeah. I agreed.)
Asked me what I replied.
I explained the thing to him.
He didn't seem to get it.
But he made me realize that Ah Loy had actually liked me since I was with my BF!
WTH.
I didn't realize till he made me remember stuff from the past.
THEN I realized.
Shit.

Ah Loy's a very nice guy...
He's a great BF,
Accompanying me to school,
Accompanying me to buy stuff,
Make me happy and stuff...

But the few days we were together,
I was really beat.

I was mean.
Said to try for 2 weeks,
But I stopped it on Thursday.
4 days later.

Mean right?
I feel so damn guilty...

But I was really tired.
Mon to Thurs I had band.
And I was project and test week.
I was really exhausted studying and doing assignments,
And band.
Meeting him in the morning while I slept at 4+ in the morning is really tiring for me.
I don't wanna give up band.
And I can't just skip classes like that....

Really cannot take it on Thursday,
Gave it up.

Yeah.
He was disappointed.
But I really am suffering.
Maybe if I hadn't joined band,
It could work out.
Might.

Yeah.
Thats all ba.
I really dunno what to say other than 'sorry'...
Really disgusted at myself.

1st BF: 4 years.
2nd: 4 days.

Wtf.
Jerold predicted the next one to be 4 weeks.
Arrgh!!!
Not funny can?
I really hope not.

Ah Loy,
I'm really sorry.
I know you understand,
But saying 'its ok' is really......
I can see you're not lo.
But I really can't give up band.
Its really important to me.
You definitely deserve someone who will appreciate you even more.
I'm really sorry to just end it when you're really trying so hard....

I'm really sorry.
I know this sound selfish,
But I really hope we can still become friends like we used to.

Cos I really treasure the friendship between us.