Wahlau eh…
Heart super pain now…
Keep thinking of Dave and Pete.

Damn it la.
Damn emo recently….
Can’t help it, really.

Oh yeah.
Didn’t mention that Sharon called me during dinner on Wed…
She was crying.
About the 2 of them.
Said she cannot forget them…

She suddenly started scolding me and stuff…

Please…
I know I haven’t been with them that long,
But who says that I don’t miss them?
Forgetten them?
Never.

Everything I do reminds me of them.
Be it eating,
Listening to music,
Eating,
Band prac,
Passing by the Mac in school….
Everything.

How can I ever forget them?
They’re the reason why I’m the Jiejun you see today.
They taught and showed me so many things that I’ve never experienced before.
Brought me out of my shell.
Encouraged me to do things I’ve never tried,
Showing me that I can do things like the others,
That I’m not inferior,
I’m not any different from the others.

When I don’t cry,
It doesn’t mean I don’t feel anything.
It really hurt to keep everything inside.
But I can’t go around emo-ing everywhere…
My old self has been appearing lately.
Have to keep it back and be myself.

I really miss them alot.
You know I really do.

But you really have to tell yourself...
You've got to hang on,
Pull yourself together,
And get up.

You've got to be strong.
Its the worst time for your family as well as theirs,
Especially Grandma,
Mike and Susan.
Its gonna be a rough one for them,
Especially for Mike and Susan.
You need to be strong and help them get back on track too.

I'm not saying that you should forget them.
Those two did so many things that left so many memories that will never ever be forgotten.

I dunno how to put this...
But imagine...
If they ever look down from the havens,
And see that all you you are morning and crying over them,
Would they be happy?

See what I mean?
They spent so much of their lives bringing happiness to others,
And I feel that they would be upset if they saw us sad and upset.

That's what I told myself.
Got to pull myself together.
Resume life.
Its difficult,
I know.

But you've got to.