Sometimes I wonder why I even exist in this world...
I have so many flaws, and I don't bring joy and happiness to people.
I don't have an impact on people's lives either.

Its super tiring....

I don't have anything good either...
No talents, nothing.

To many,
I appear weird...
I'm not cool enough to be seen to be together with.

I have nothing my parents can be proud of.
I join band that my dad don't really like,
I'm taking a diploma,
Which like 80% of young Singaporeans are doing.

I play the eupho,
Many people don't even know such a name existed.
And I can't play it well like the rest of my section.

Why do I exist?
I really hate the idea of slogging the rest of my lifetime for some company after I graduate.

It's not that I'm tired of life,
I love looking at beautiful things like trees,
Animals,
Other people....

I love my mom,
My strict dad,
My irritating sisters,
My Aunts,
Uncle...

But I really wonder....
Everyone seems to be living their lives to the max,
And knowing what they want,
And pursuing it....

Me?
I don't know what I want...
The course I'm taking my diploma for is like making me blur of what I want.
Customer relations officer?
Marketer?
Manager?
Promoter?
Or even admin clerk? (Eww....)

I'm also getting nowhere with eupho...
My god....