I'm feeling so weird now.
What's with this feeling??

It's not about the musical later....

Lonliness??
Yeah.
Lonliness....

But why would I feel so lonely?
As like now?

Wasn't I talking to Dave just like an hour ago..?
And Pete?

What happenend?
















I want someone who I can hang out with all day long.
Someone who can just sit and watch the stars with me for hours.
Someone who can call me when they're free,
Not for anything,
To just know how I'm getting on.

Why must I always be the one who cares about people?
Humans....
Yes...
They use you when they need you...
When they go strong once again,
They'll fly and forget all about the person who rooted for them when they're weak.
Looks like I have not made an print in their lives.

In the bus alone,
During band,
In my room,
Before I sleep,
I think of people.
Who?

Anyone that pops into my head.
Random.
Might be this girl/guy who passed by me on the train.
Might be my primary school friend/classmate.
Might be my secondary school friends.
Might be a teacher,
Might be someone I saw in camp,
Might be a distant friend,
Might be my classmates,
Might be my bandmates and juniors,
Might be you even.


Sometimes,
When I get the sudden urge,
Or had a bad nightmare or something about you,
I'd call or SMS.

Sometimes people come online.
A window incdicating that will pop up.
I click and say hi.
People's normal respond will be
"What?"

I don't type anymore.
What's wrong with saying hi to a friend?
Must I have anything to ask if I talked?

Nevermind.
I'll just watch you people from a distance.
To make sure you'll be okay.
To notice if something's amiss.
I'll just go over if there's anything wrong.
It's okay if you lie and cheat,
Or betray.
It's okay.
It's okay.
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