There are many things recently that make me damn stressed....
There's

Family

Band

School

My mom is acting quite weird recently...

She gets mad at me for even the slightest things.

She claims that I spend too much time in school and band.

She says that I don't love my sisters enough.

She even suspected that I had gone out to play while lying to her that I've gone to school...

How can that be?
With 6 people calling me non-stop to ask me out everday?
She don't get it.
She can't see how tired I am.

I am really trying to juggle between family and school.

I'm swamped with projects and work.

Band is ultra stessful,
due to expectations from Laoshi.

The Symphonia concert is also coming up,
and I cannot even play a piece 100%.
Being in the same section with Hong Sheng is not helping either.

I go to-and-fro from NYP every weekday and saturday.

Band & project work...

Do you think I like that?

Do you know how it feels like
to be doing project work on something you've just learned?

Do you know how it feels like
to be sitting in the band with Hong Sheng?

Do you know how it feels like
when you know that you cannot be compared to him?

Do you know how it feels like
to have this at school
and get scolded once you step into your home?

I'm ultra-stressed up.

I'm so tired.

I feel like I don't belong anywhere.

I want to run away.

I don't want to go home.